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Fri, 06/07/2007 - 16:24 — lifedream27

Last year I was raw for 10 months.... then I started to crave more "protein". SADly enough I went back on cooked food. And in the worst way. I found myself over-indulging. Not even tasting my "food".
When I was raw I savored every morsel of my food. Now I just eat. At the beginning of the year, not only was I obsessed with my weight again, I became bulimic- by conscience choice.... how disgusting.
When I was raw I felt apart of a "secret society", infatuated with raw vegan information. I even looked at those who ate cook food with pity... wishing they could realize the miracles of eating raw.
So many people told me I needed meat, or certain cooked foods.... I guess I listened.
I have gained almost 20 pounds (9kilos). Wow... all it is is toxins.
I have aquired my asthma, allergies and constipation all over again.
What happened? Why did I have to go wrong?
I missed the memories associated with the cooked food, I am sure.
Last November I moved to Australia to work. I ate cooked. It was so funny when I ate cooked for again- I was actually scared of what it could do to me! That says a lot.
In February 07 I met the love of my life.
He is from Belgium- so, I moved to Belgium.
Belgiums enjoy their rich foods, beer, chocolate, and smoking.
I have an addictive personality, ( I know that is in my mind), and so I have allowed myself to fall even further from where I want to be.
I have told my boyfriend about raw veganism and he is very intruiged and wants to try it.... of which I am so grateful.
I need to get off my ass and do it.
When I started raw I was living in LA... the easiest place to be raw. It was brilliant!
My boyfriend and I are moving into our own home in september. I will have my own beautiful kitchen (no matter what size it is) and be able to go raw crazy. I love to uncook.... love it.
In 10 days I am going to hawaii until sept. So I have decided to do Storm's OJ cleanse. I did it last summer. I loved it. I was quite weak... but I felt great.
So people fall. People fail... but it truly a learning process.
The one disadvantage I had with meing raw was that I was always bloated.... food combining... I know!
To plan and be organized with eating raw is very important, especially in the beginning.
So I shall let this new beginning be fantastic!
Thank you

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Hard to stay raw

Submitted by Green fairy on Thu, 12/07/2007 - 23:28.

Trying to make the world a greener place...

 

Hello lifedream27!

I've read your blog, thanks a lot!  (I'm from Belgium, but I'm living in Switzerland since 2 years now)

I'm raw for about 3 months and yesterday I ate a pizza for the first time since I'm raw.  I was hungry and I hadn't anything home to eat, except some vegetables.  I couldn't find avocado's, nuts, juicy fruits, ... so nothing that could satisfy my craving.

So, after a short consideration (talking to myself that I was doing so great with the raw stuff and that I went practicly 100% raw from one day to the other, so I thought that 1 sin wouldn't be that bad...), I decided to order for a pizza.  (A vegetarian one, because I'm a vegetarian for a about 12 years).

And at the same time I felt a shame too.  Because, like you said, I look at people who eat cooked food with pity...

And I was also scared of what it could do to me, so thats also why I decided to order pizza so I could eat it at home.

I ate the pizza so fast like I hadn't eaten in months!

I was disappointed in the taste, there was none actually!  At first I dind't feel sick, but after an hour or so it started.  My stomach did hurt so much I could hardly stand it.  I couldn't walk upstraight anymore, I couldn't breath properly anymore, my heart was pounding so fast, I got cold feet and felt feeverisch, .... It was the worst!

At that moment I also realized that I used to have stomach aches (but not that bad) caused by toxic cooked food.  I always thought it was because of an emotional problem in my solar plexus.

And at that moment when I was in so much pain, I also made a promise to myself: that I will never never eat that again!  And with that my craving for pizza disappeared.

But today I was briefly thinking of eating a pizza but not swallowing it!  I don't know what to make of that.  But without having taste of it, why bothering?  So I've thrown away that idea.  Thank God!

The only craving I still have is for alcohol and potato chips.  Which I drink/eat still sometimes.

But I'm working on that.  I did some thinking and reading.  And I think I still drink/eat that to ground myself.  It totally make sense now!  I've always had problems to ground myself I realise.  About one year ago I followed treatments by a healer (Hove, near Antwerp) and I've said something like wanting to eat only fruit or raw vegetables in the short futur (At that time I've never heard from raw veganism!!  It was just an intuitiv feeling) And she said that that wasn't a good idea, because I have problems with grounding myself.  She said that I should keep eating potatos and rice to ground myself.  I didn't paid much attention to it, because I hadn't change my eating habbits either.

But now I remember again and I started reading my book "gronden" again. 

I'm sure that this is a problem that many raw foodists have and proper daily grounding excercise can be of great help! 

I'd  love to hear/read more about your experiences with raw food!

Take care and have a great time in Hawaii.