
Hi everyone,
The Ritual: To begin, let me start by introducing myself and tell you about my name. A few months ago, my friend and I decided to create a "ritual" to celebrate life and give thanks to Mother Earth. Since this was our first ritual, we chose to celebrate it on the day of the Summer Solstice. Having no clue on how to exactly perform such a celebration, we agreed to follow our intuition and include a few natural elements. Thus, we gathered our favorite crystals, two wooden bowls filled with water, and some incense. After performing a guided relaxation, we took turns and placed one crystal at a time in the wooden bowls, invoquing a new quality. Once both bowls were filled with the crystals, we placed them aside for a few hours in order to let the water impregnate itself with the vibrations of the crystals. In the meantime, we both chose a new name. The purpose of choosing a new name was for it to represent the new person we were about to become. I chose "Leelah" which for me symbolizes dancing with life. Hence, the purpose of this exercise was for me to embrace life more fully, enjoy each second and learn to let go. Finally, to close the ritual, we each drank the crystal water.
The reason I decided to share this ritual with you is because I believe that on that special day, a profound change began. There are no coincidences...something did happen and my wishes are slowly being exhausted.
Dancing with Life: What does "dancing with life" mean to me? Well, I think it means becoming one with nature, letting go of the sense of separateness and feeling once again the joy and energy of childhood. Not being so serious anymore and just enjoying the journey. As a doctoral student in clinical psychology, I tend to experience a constant stress due to the pressure of exams and a need for perfection. Up until recently, all I could think of was getting to the end of this loooong program...but, on the way, I have learnt that it is not the destination that matters but the journey (Peaceful Warrior). So, I now try to enjoy the ride...and take time with my dog at the park on the water, listening to the waves on the shore and the wind in the palm trees. Yes, I live in the tropics :)
Well, two and a half months ago, a friend of mine gave me a flyer he had "found" in the natural foods store. This flyer was from a Raw Chef Caterer who offered to deliver prepared raw vegan meals.
The Seed Had Been Planted: Years ago, I had read a book on raw foods and was very excited about it. I discussed it with my best friend, trying to convince her to adopt healthier eating habits...but, she gently laughed, responding that she was fine. Maybe a year after our conversation and just before her 30th birthday, her father suddenly passed away. When I asked her what she wanted for her birthday, she responded: "I don't want to loose anybody anymore. Once I'm gone, then I won't care anymore". Shortly after that, she began complaining of back pains. After several tests and wrong diagnoses, the doctors finally concluded that she had cancer. Within two and a half months, she passed away in August 2001.
Asia: The death of my best friend was a great lesson. From then on, I decided to take my health into my own hands and educate myself. Years before that, I used to regularly consult naturopaths and rely on them to fix me. Well, in 1998, I traveled for 13 months throughout Asia and while I was there, I did get sick quite a few times. No one to run to anymore...until I learnt a good lesson. Someone I met in Dharamsalla (India) gave me Reiki. It really helped get my energy back and made me feel much better. So, I asked for more. Well, he said no and that it was time for me to learn to heal myself. At first, I was not very motivated and had never before felt the need to learn healing techniques. But, because of this person's insistence, I signed up for my first Reiki course. It was amazing and transformed me! After that, I went for a few more courses and practiced a lot on fellow travelers. This was my first step into a bright new direction. The direction of self discovery and empowerment! The beginning of my journey to health.
When my best friend passed away, I wasn't eating raw but had been a vegetarian since my teenage years. Shortly after her death, I moved to the States and ended up going back to school. I was a bit upset by the fact that no one seemed to follow my dietary recommendations and did not take nutrition or health seriously. Once I settled into my new home, I discovered health food shops bigger than I had ever seen in Switzerland. This was almost paradise!!! All this healthy, organic food :)
Slowly, I switched to a purely vegetarian and organic diet and cut down on dairy. From then on, I stopped getting colds...but the energy was still not great. My weight was stable, but I was stuffing myself with "gluten free" chips and cookies, organic chocolate and pizza...not even aware I was on a purely processed "organic" diet!!!
The beginning of my new journey: On the day my friend handed me that flyer, I contacted the Raw Vegan Chef and ordered my first meals. This time, I had no more excuses: raw vegan food at my doorstep! The reason I had not done it earlier was that after a few days of eating salads, I just got bored. I had no idea of all the Yummy raw foods and recipes available out there. This was on September 03 2007.
My experience with raw food and detox: I am happy to report that I have been 100% raw for 2.5 months!!! I have sooo much to share about this experience...
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hello Leelah, Â Thanks a
hello Leelah,
Thanks a lot for sharing your story!
It actually surprises me to see how much I recognize in your story. It strikes me to read things that I could written too??
For instance:
-searching contact with nature and mother earth (I moved to the Swiss Alps 2.5 years ago because of that!),
-I also learned the importance of enjoing the journey and not being fixated on the end or the result and mostly I'm learning now to have confidence and faith in "the universe". Letting go of fears and stop worrying about all sort of things. Everything will come when it has to come (even money!) and everything happens with a reason. Even if I don't understand it know. When I overlook the last years of my life, I've been really guided and amazing things did happen. And I know, this will continue as long as I let go and follow my heart. this sounds easy, but sometimes it is really hard to take the next jump in the unknown. I've heard/read this sentence a while ago: You're on the right track when you're experiencing uncertainty. It was not in those words, but it simply means when all the certainties in your life dissapear, you're doing great! It's been of a great help to know this.
-Other things I recognized: Becoming a healer myself...
-being a vegetarian since my teenage years
-Eating gluten free cookies and rice waffels and other "healthy" food the whole time and thinking that you're eating healthy... But at the same time you still had the feeling that something was really wrong.
-And finally discovering raw vegan food. And the detox and the detox...
I went raw in april 07 and I was 100% raw for 3 months. Now I'm struggling a bit with the 100%. Some days its 100%, then it is 90% and so on. But I'll get there again, I know. I think I should give my body the time to addapt. And my emotional body too. Going raw is a process. And like you said, it is the journey that matters not the destiny.
Like to read more of you!
Following your path
Hi,
Thank you for your post. I agree with you, it's sometimes really hard to just let go and accept the fact that we are guided. I think it is a matter of faith...faith in the universe or God. I think that when we totally trust, things work out in our favor. But when we doubt or disconnect, we tend to get lost for a while. Did you read the book "The Life and Teachings of the Great Masters of the East" by Baird Spalding (La Vie des Maitres)? I always try to remember the message in that book: everything is possible...
Of course, I regularly forget, get stressed or upset for little things...but, I guess it is a process. While I was in Dharamsala, a Tibetan teacher I had never met before told me: "step by step". He just approached me and gave me a few words of wisdom. At that time, I had no clue what he meant, but with the years, I kept thinking back to what he had said. Step by step...we learn one step at a time and we always move forward. Sometimes we slow down or loose track of the destination, but eventually, we get back on track!
I guess it's the same with raw foods. I have now reached 3 months and I am beginning to wonder if maybe I should take some supplements or not, eat once in a while raw milk cheese or not...I concluded that it is best to follow my instinct...trial and error is a good way to learn :)
You followed your dream of being close to nature and moved to the Alps. It's so great to just go ahead and make our dreams come true. It's all a matter of trust and faith...I wanted to move to the tropics...and here I am. But honestly, I often wonder what I am doing in Miami!!! I don't think I could be farther away from nature...I guess there's a reason. I must first get my degree :)
Have a wonderful holiday and a happy new year!!!
"Do not follow where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail" - Ralph Waldo Emerson