Raw Vegan Info Point

Last year I was raw for 10 months.... then I started to crave more "protein". SADly enough I went back on cooked food. And in the worst way. I found myself over-indulging. Not even tasting my "food".
When I was raw I savored every morsel of my food. Now I just eat. At the beginning of the year, not only was I obsessed with my weight again, I became bulimic- by conscience choice.... how disgusting.
When I was raw I felt apart of a "secret society", infatuated with raw vegan information. I even looked at those who ate cook food with pity... wishing they could realize the miracles of eating raw.
So many people told me I needed meat, or certain cooked foods.... I guess I listened.
I have gained almost 20 pounds (9kilos). Wow... all it is is toxins.
I have aquired my asthma, allergies and constipation all over again.
What happened? Why did I have to go wrong?
I missed the memories associated with the cooked food, I am sure.
Last November I moved to Australia to work. I ate cooked. It was so funny when I ate cooked for again- I was actually scared of what it could do to me! That says a lot.
In February 07 I met the love of my life.
He is from Belgium- so, I moved to Belgium.
Belgiums enjoy their rich foods, beer, chocolate, and smoking.
I have an addictive personality, ( I know that is in my mind), and so I have allowed myself to fall even further from where I want to be.
I have told my boyfriend about raw veganism and he is very intruiged and wants to try it.... of which I am so grateful.
I need to get off my ass and do it.
When I started raw I was living in LA... the easiest place to be raw. It was brilliant!
My boyfriend and I are moving into our own home in september. I will have my own beautiful kitchen (no matter what size it is) and be able to go raw crazy. I love to uncook.... love it.
In 10 days I am going to hawaii until sept. So I have decided to do Storm's OJ cleanse. I did it last summer. I loved it. I was quite weak... but I felt great.
So people fall. People fail... but it truly a learning process.
The one disadvantage I had with meing raw was that I was always bloated.... food combining... I know!
To plan and be organized with eating raw is very important, especially in the beginning.
So I shall let this new beginning be fantastic!
Thank you